bring me your love

hahaha!

2011-10-17T01:41:00.000-04:00

So that photo challenge again failed miserably! But in my defence, I've been super busy. I just hosted my first book club and think I had the most food for everyone to eat (it only took me 10 hours to prep everything...no big deal). The onion dip was a huge hit, and ridiculously easy to make, nom nom nom.

I found this pretty neat "questionnaire" through:

01 – Introduce yourself, in great detail
02 – Your first love, in great detail
03 – Your parents, in great detail
04 – What you ate today, in great detail
05 – Your definition of love, in great detail
06 – Your day, in great detail
07 – Your best friend, in great detail
08 – A moment, in great detail
09 – Your beliefs, in great detail
10 – What you wore today, in great detail
11 – Your siblings, in great detail
12 – What’s in your bag, in great detail
13 – This week, in great detail
14 – What you wore today, in great detail
15 – Your dreams, in great detail
16 – Your first kiss, in great detail
17 – Your favorite memory, in great detail
18 – Your favorite birthday, in great detail
19 – Something you regret, in great detail
20 – This month, in great detail
21 – Another moment, in great detail
22 – Something that upsets you, in great detail
23 – Something that makes you feel better, in great detail
24 – Something that makes you cry, in great detail
25 – A first, in great detail
26 – Your fears, in great detail
27 – Your favorite place, in great detail
28 – Something that you miss, in great detail
29 – Your aspirations, in great detail
30 – One last moment, in great detail

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts

2011-10-12T00:53:00.000-04:00

1. the picture above is incredibly old

2. I am graduating this year! wahoo!

3. it's 12:50AM, and I have enough work to keep me up for 72 hours straight :)

4. it's October 11th, 2011 at it was 26 degrees C today

5. i suck at making pumpkin puree

6. favourite book: "Eleanor Rigby" by Douglas Coupland

7. In my spare time, I like reading "Best of Craigslist" ads

8. My favourite prized possession is my KitchenAid stand mixer

9. I love my grandma's Portuguese stuffing

10. I'm not sure whether I should travel or get a huge f'ing tattoo when I graduate

let's try this again....

2011-10-12T00:49:00.003-04:00

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts

... Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show

Day 04 - A picture of your night

Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory

Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day

Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most ****** up things with

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate

Day 12 - A picture of something you love

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity

Day 19 - A picture and a letter

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change

Day 25 - A picture of your day

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member

Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile

Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss

Day 31 - A picture of yourself

i am crazy.

2011-10-05T00:38:00.000-04:00

I really want to go to the Mumford & Sons show on the 25th, but I have a test the next day. They are also playing at Copps that night, but I need to see if my concert buddy is available.

Decisions, decisions! I would also need to actually purchase tickets. hmph.

FINAL YEAR OF UNDERGRAD!!!

2011-09-06T04:27:00.000-04:00

Tomorrow starts the first day to the last year of undergraduate schooling for me. I'm excited/anxious/nervous/pumped/worried. That's why it's almost 5AM and I'm still up. I have tons to do this year and I'm pretty excited about the special projects I'm working on.

It's my mission this year to pass with distinction. Because of calculus, there's no way I'd be able to pass with high distinction, but meh.

I wish things other than school were going well, but you can't win them all. I'm looking forward to getting out a bit more and having a small social life. I feel trapped right now. And I need to learn how to break free.

What I'm more worried/anxious/excited about: MY BABY BROTHER IS GRADUATING HIGH SCHOOL THIS YEAR!! He gets to wear a tuxedo and go to prom! How cute is that!?
I know he's not little anymore, but he'll always be my little brother :)

30 Day Challenge: Day 3

2010-11-29T14:55:00.004-05:00

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show

KIDS IN THE HALL!!!!

30 Day Challenge: Day 2

2010-11-28T01:29:00.000-05:00

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

(btw, technically it's only Sunday, so I didn't miss a day)

People typically put pictures of friends and junk. I would like to think that my parents have known me the longest, considering they birthed and raised me, haha.

30 Day Challenge: Day 1

2010-11-27T00:33:00.000-05:00

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts

1. I have a pet cat named Kia
2. I secretly never want to leave school (well I guess it's not so secret anymore...)
3. My biggest wish is to get locked in Ikea at night and be able to frollic and run around the store at night!
4. I'm starting to plan (and save) for my next tattoo
5. I actually get to say "I work in a lab"
6. #5 makes me feel smart
7. I want to go to UBC for grad studies but I can't because of the prerequisites :(
8. I spent 6 hours on a boat with Dallas Green
9. I want to go to Calgary or Montreal for my next vacation
10. I love to read the "best of Craigslist" when I'm bored or SHOULD be doing other stuff (i.e. homework)

PROOF!!!

2010-08-30T02:10:00.000-04:00

catty
you have to promise me something

Ryan
What's that

catty
you will come skating with me at nathan phillips square this year

Ryan

Alright

2010-05-22T04:05:00.000-04:00

1. What are your initials? CM
2. What is your favorite thing to wear? If I can get away with wearing PJs and no socks, I'm a happy camper
3. Last thing you ate? ketchup chips & Arizona Iced Tea
4. One place you will NEVER eat at? Applebees sucks
5. I say Shotgun, you say: Okay...
6. Last person you hugged? Ryan
7. Does anyone you know wanna date you? Well, I HOPE Ryan would, but I don't know
8. Would you date anyone you met online? Maybeh.
9. Name something you like physically about yourself: I have great knee caps.
10. The last place you went out to dinner to? Sushi Inn (Cumberland)
11. Who is your best friend? JESSICA FFREAKING SABELLI!!!!
12. What time of the day is it? 3:58AM
13. Who/What made you angry today? Stupid "upper management"
14. Baseball or Football? Neither
15. Ever gone skinny dipping? Sort of?
16. Favorite type of Food? SUSHI!!!!
17. Favorite holiday: Christmas
18. Do you download music: Nope
19. Do you care if your socks are dirty? Nay
20. Opinion of Chinese symbol tattoos? Dislike
21. Would you date the person who posted this? No one posted this. I would date me in a heartbeat.
22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally? Once
23. Do you love anyone? I love lots of people
24. Are colored contact lenses sexy? I think they're fun
25. Have you ever bungee jumped? Nay
26. Have you ever gone white-water rafting? Nay
27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you? UGH AT BLUE SUEDE SHOES!!!
28. How many pets do you have? 1...but 2 if you count my brother
29. Have you met a real redneck? Apparently not to Ryan's standards
30. How is the weather right now? WARM!!!
31. What are you listening to right now? Nothing
32. What is your current favorite song? Weighty Ghost - Wintersleep
33. What was the last movie you watched? Iron Man 2
34. Do you wear contacts? No
35. Where was the last place you went besides your house? Ryan's
36. What are you afraid of? Being alone
37. How many piercings have you had? just ears, 3 each side
38. What piercings do you want? I'm content w/ what I have
39. What's one thing you've learned this year? what weasel words are
40. What do you usually order from Starbucks? summer - venti passion tea lemonade; winter - signature hot chocolate or whatever holiday specials they have
41. What Magazines are you reading? None
42. Have you ever fired a gun: Nope
43. Are you missing someone? Nope
44. Favorite TV show? House, Dexter, KITH
45. Do you have an obession with WoW? No, but I know someone who does!
46. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb? Ugly Betty
47. What celeb do you look like? see above
48. Who would you like to see right now? My family!
49. Favorite movie of all time? EDWARD SCISSORHANDS
50. Do you find yourself loved? Yes :)
51. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't suppose to? Probably
52. Favorite smell? bonfire
53. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn? butter
54. Ever put a friend in a cop car on JukePix.com? nope
55. Ever been in a cop car in real life? Nope...ohh MAYBE ONCE!
56. Has anyone you were really close to passed away recently? Not recently but yes
57. Our Lady Peace or Nickelback? OLP
58. What's something that really bugs you? people talking during movies
59. Do you like Michael Jackson? Sure
60. Taco Bell or Burger King? WHOPPER WEDNESDAY!!
61. What's your favorite perfume? Ed Hardy
62. Favorite baseball team? Ew, no.
63. Ever call a 1-900 phone number? No
64. Nipple or Nose rings? what about them?
65. What's the longest time you've gone without sleep? 2.5 days
66. Last time you went bowling? YEARS
67. Where is the weirdest place you have slept? sitting up on a couch at a birthday party
68. Who was your last phone call? My mom called
69. Last time you were at work? today
70. What's the closest orange object to you? Ralph Lauren body lotion

toodalooo

2010-04-24T00:13:00.000-04:00

WOW. I'm absolutely amazing at blogging. So much so it's taken me a month to respond.
Now that school is done, maybe there will be more to post about. Or less because all I'm doing at the present time is working.

But here's what I'm planning. Tomorrow I have to work in the morning, and when I am finished I'm trying to head out to Ryan's. His mom is in the hospital getting surgery for her stomach because her hernia left her unable to eat a lot of meat and such. If I'm not going out until the late afternoon/evening, I'm going to attempt to sleep over Ryan's. My parents have told me no in the past because they find it disrespectful..but his mom won't even be home. So I have to try and talk to her about that.

2010-03-16T00:25:00.000-04:00

I'm not pleased at the moment and my sickness is making me more irritated than I would normally be.

I need to learn how to be apathetic, because even of the smallest of gestures (or lack thereof) drives me insane looking for hidden meanings.

new goal: be more apathetic. it will save you from going crazy when people are idiots or aren't and you're just hormonal. it'll save a lot of headache and stress.

4 days!

2010-02-09T09:14:00.000-05:00

4 days!
I just have to get through my Cognitive Psychology midterm tonight and my Diversity Bell Ringer tomorrow and then I'm freeeeeeeee!

I'm getting a head start on my assignments due after reading week this week.
Have to pick up:
-travel bottles
-gift for Jelissa
-wordsearch book to do on the plane/crossword for Ryan?

black white red yellow/green

2010-02-04T08:44:00.000-05:00

colour terms are universal.
I have had three midterms and one assignment due in a period of 24 hours. My brain is mush. I can't think straight and it doesn't help that I can't see straight because of my broken glasses. I'm leaving in 9 days and I go through excitement spurts.

Right now I'm sitting in my lecture room for PSY 295. Midterm was on Tuesday and I didn't study for it, because I spent the rest of my weekend freaking out about PSY 274 and BIO 215.

Regardless, I think I did well on all three, but I'm not used to short answer type questions. In my 2 years at Waterloo, I learned how to master multiple choice --the only time written answers were used was in quizzes in our labs.

I'm starting to feel the "February Blues" so to speak. I thought this year would be different, but I'm starting to realize that it's got to be a seasonal thing. I can't understand why I'm having so much difficulty coping with everything. Last year I attributed my 'depression' to not seeing my family and not really having anyone. This year is the polar opposite, but waking up and getting out of bed every morning (even after sleeping 10 hours like I did last night) is exhausting on its own. I'm not eating right. I go through spurts of eating like a cow and then sometimes I don't eat at all. I don't want to go and do a self-diagnosis of SAD (season affective disorder) because I don't want to lay blame where I really shouldn't. As well, every time I think I have something, I learn I have crappy instincts. Example: not pregnant, even after freaking out every time for the last three months. I've learned to stop freaking out since.

12 days! 12 days!

2010-02-01T11:33:00.000-05:00

IM GOING TO VANCOUVER IN TWELVE FREAKING DAYS.

I can't wait to go. My mind has been in so many places I just need that week to kind of say FUCK IT to everything else.

16

2010-01-29T00:19:00.000-05:00

16 days until Vancouver.
OOoooh this blog editor is different. Let's see how this goes.
I'm about to ask my mom if I can sleep over my boyfriend's house tomorrow and I'm freaking out just about asking. I'm looking on Yahoo Answers for creative ways to ask, but can think of none.
BAHH.

2010-01-25T00:40:00.001-05:00

I NEED TO SLEEP. BAHHH!!

2010-01-21T22:21:00.000-05:00

So an interesting turn of events in the last 5 hours or so.
I'm being a responsible daughter cooking dinner and I get a text message from Josh saying that he has to cancel his trip to Vancouver because some family stuff came up, asked if it could get refunded, etc.
I told him I would have to call WestJet and see what the deal is with that, and he said even if I could find someone else to go with him. I was actually on the phone with Ryan - so I asked him. He called his dad, and now Ryan's coming with me, haha.

We were able to get a name change on the tickets for a $50 charge, so I'll take that out of what Ryan essentially owes. We're in the process of selling our curling tickets, otherwise we will go with Chad's parents!

SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP

2010-01-19T02:05:00.000-05:00

Dear Ryan Mitchell Pratt,

I LOVE YOU!!!

Sincerely,
Caterina

AW!

2010-01-12T19:11:00.002-05:00

REUNION IN 35 DAYS!

2010-01-10T06:07:00.000-05:00

35 DAYS UNTIL WE GET TO FROLIC!!!!!!

SO EXCITED!!

2010-01-10T05:03:00.000-05:00

VANCOUVER IS IN 35 DAYS!

I also have some very exciting news!

Initially, Josh and I were going to take a plane from Buffalo to Seattle with a connection in Washington. The only reason we both agreed to it was because of the fact that it was $277 round trip flight.

After the Christmas day terrorist plot, along with the numerous schedule changes that have been happening with United, I messaged Josh and asked him if we could switch flights. I had originally proposed this idea to him before Christmas, but at the time, direct flights from Toronto to Vancouver were around $600 and he didn't want to spend that much on a flight.

Just last week I looked online through West Jet and found that they were having a seat sale, so in total we would be spending $436...a mere $160 more than what we originally had purchased. There are a few key differences:

1) West Jet offers 2 pieces of carry on luggage and 2 pieces of checked luggage for FREE. United charges $30 per luggage and due to the Christmas Day terrorist plot, no carry on luggage is allowed
2) West Jet is a direct flight from Pearson (which is ~20min from my house) and right to Vancouver. If we were to go with United, it would be from Buffalo (therefore someone would have to drive us there, we would have to pay for a hotel room) and connecting flights to Seattle (where we would then either wait for Jelissa to pick us up or spend another $100 on a bus to cross into Vancouver)
3) West Jet's flight is DIRECT! Which means so scurrying from plane to plane hoping that we won't miss it. It's the middle of February that we're going, so anything is possible. I realize that it's just as likely to be delayed or canceled at Pearson, but I would rather be delayed or stranded in my own country.

Luckily, because the agents at United are fuck-ups, I was able to get my entire ticket refunded in full. So right away, I went online and purchased the West Jet tickets. I just went online to recheck the flight that I'm taking, and the trip has increased in price...DOUBLE. So in that sense, I consider myself fucking lucky!!!

I am starting to put together a check-list of all the things I need to make sure that I have before I go with me, I sent Josh an e-mail outlining all of the regulations about baggage and identification and all that jazz.

I know I may seem slightly OCD, but the beginning of February is going to be torture for me, therefore I don't even want to try and juggle 80 things at once.

My LIFE

2010-01-04T06:38:00.000-05:00

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

How I live my life.

UNITED SUCKS ASS

2009-12-24T14:13:00.001-05:00

Dear United,

YOU GUYS FUCKING SUCK.

Love,
Cat

the only reason I'm staying with you is because Josh doesn't want to pay the extra money to go through Pearson. Some suggestions:
a) don't outsource your fucking calls to India
b) spend a bit more money on web developers so that the website doesn't fuck up every 2 minutes
c) don't constantly change the flights

like seriously, BAHH! I'm so tempted to tell them to fuck off and to give me my money back so I can go through Pearson to buy my tickets.

ghosting!

2009-12-12T17:41:00.000-05:00

ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

One exam to go !!!

And I have no desire to study. Even though it's probably my favourite course thus far.

Our stairs are getting redone so I'm going to have to find somewhere else to sleep tonight.

The Violet Hour

2009-12-07T01:06:00.000-05:00

Your lips are nettles
Your tongue is wine
Your laugher's liquid
But your body's pine

You love all sailors
But hate the beach
You say "Come touch me"
But you're always out of reach

In the dark you tell me of a flower
That only blooms in the violet hour

Your arms are lovely
Yellow and rose
Your back`s a meadow
Covered in snow

Your thighs are thistles
and hot-house grapes
You breathe your sweet breath
And have me waiting

In the dark you tell me of a flower
that only blooms in the violet hour

I turn the lights out
I clean the sheets
You change the station
Turn up the heat

And now you`re sitting
Upon your chair
You`ve got me tangled up
Inside your beautiful black hair

In the dark you tell me of a flower
that only blooms in the violet hour

In the dark you tell me of a flower
that only blooms in the violet hour

In the dark you tell me of a flower
that only blooms in the violet hour

---
I love Sea Wolf more and more every day!

2009-11-29T12:24:00.000-05:00

Sleeping is nice.
Unfortuantely I am not doing such thing.
I have to:
a) go to work hand in rest of mail outs that didn't get sent yet
b) at work finish ticket for realtyreport Jan 2010 edition
c) make those pasta things with my parents (even though I don't know why they decided to make them)
d) finish module 8 before midnight

New Year's

2009-11-26T00:53:00.001-05:00

-I'm getting a head start:

get active! Join a class at the gym or something like that
Volunteer with an SLP/hospital
take some time for myself
STUDY!!!!!
save up enough money for a car
join a club at school (PAUSE?!)

somebody pinch me!

2009-11-26T00:40:00.000-05:00

Why am I so cold?
And my heart feels sick
And it hurts when I speak
And this is not what I hoped for

I'm trying, I swear.
Sleep now. Test tomorrow.

look at what i get to do this week:

2009-11-18T19:28:00.000-05:00

1. psy 201 midterm (DONE)
2. christmas mailouts
3. New Moon showing
4. Girls' Night Out with Mary & Maria
5. Out with Ryan
6. BIO 152 Lab Test
7. St. George excursion

sl ee ee pp y

2009-11-04T11:54:00.001-05:00

I have 2 hours until my next class and I'm so exhausted I can't get any work done. Not to mention there are no seats left, so I'm sitting on the ground against a library shelf. It's actually way more comfortable than it sounds.

poop.

2009-10-29T18:30:00.001-04:00

i'm getting bored.

i can't let my mind run off too much because it's bad for me.

i start thinking about things that i probably shouldn't be thinking about.

hmph.

bio 200

2009-10-29T14:36:00.001-04:00

I have a midterm at 5PM, so I'm testing myself to see how well I am remembering things:

uhhhhh. yeah.

ASA pka 3.5 acid, mean Vd 0.15L/kg, bioavailability 100%, plasma protein binding 80%
Diazepam pka 3.3 base, mean Vd 1.1L/kg, bioavailability 100% plasma protein binding 99%
Digoxin pka neither, mean Vd 5.3, bioavailability 75%, plasma protein binding 35%
Neostigmine - always charged base, pka 12 mean Vd 0.5-1.0, bioavailability none (70% of it gets excreted unchanged because it's such a low Po/w), no plasma protein binding
Propanolol pka 9.45 base, Vd 3, protein binding 93%, bioavailability 25-50%
Phenytoin - pka 8.3 acid, Vd 07, bioavailbility up to 98%, plasma protein binding 70-95%

CLr = clearance by the kidney = clearance of substance/clearance of inulin
*inulin is just filtered through the kidney so it is the marker

Ratio > 1 -- Filtration + Secretion
Ratio = 1 -- Filtration Only
Ration < 1 -- Net Reabsorption (high Po/w)

pH of urine has an effect on drugs
--sodium lactate -- raises pH - charges acids, get stuck and out through urine
--ammonium chloride -- lowers pH - charges bases, get stuck and out through urine

Clearance by liver
-instrinsic clearance - basically the rate of elimination by the liver; elimination means the transformation rate
---high extraction - dependent on blood flow - faster blood flow, quicker biotransformation -- not protected by plasma protein binding, strong first pass effect** PROPANOLOL, MORPHINE, CODEINE
--low extraction -- dependent on enzymes available - more enzymes, more broken down, half life extended by protein binding ** WARFARIN, DIAZEPAM
E = Q (blood flow) x Ca - Cv / Ca..... F = 1-E

Drug Biotransformation --> Phase I and Phase II
-metabolites can be less, same or more reactive than parent drug

PHASE I - makes the drug slightly more polar
-oxidation (CYP450s, FMOs, DEHYDROGENASES, HYDROLASES), etc
-reduction
-hydrolysis
**if an enzyme has 40% same gene sequence as another, it is part of the same family and part of the same subfamily if it shares 55% of the gene sequence
CYP1A - breaks down PAH's (toxins) like benzo(a)pyrene (cig. smoke)
CYP3A4 - BREAKS DOWN ~ 50% drugs
CYP2C9 - main in liver, poymorphic warfarin
CYP2C19 - diazepam
CYP2D6 - not high levels in liver, does all 'antis' haha
CYP2E1 - can metabolize ETHANOL (alcohols) -- Asian people have a fucked up CYP 2E1 enzyme

FMOs - have FAD cofactor, add oxygen to one substrate and the other to water
Ethanol biotransofmration can occur in the cytosol by alcohol dehydrogenase, aldehyde dehydrogenase ..2nd step in mitochondria

MAO - brain
-serotonin, epinephrine
-inhibitors block, remove NH2 group

REDUCTION
-azo - not used, break into two amines
-nitro - amine + RNwater
-carbonyl - adds H (RCOR')

HYDROLYIS - ADDS WATER
-ESTERS - carboxylic + alcohol ASA
-AMIDES - carboxylic + amine

PHASE II BIOTRANSFORMATION

GLUCUORINDATION
COFACTOR: UDP-GA (can't be GA by itself, won't bound free drug)
ENZYME: UGT
--bilirubin, acetominophen

Bilirubin - Cringler Najjar disease & Gilbert's disease

GLUTATHIONE - good for anti-cancer drugs and dangerous toxins, NAPQI, etc
COFACTOR: glutathione (cys, gly, glu)
ENZYME: GST

SULFATION - phenols/alcohols
COFACTOR: PAPS
ENZYME: sulfotransferase

ACETYLATION - amide groups
COFACTOR: acetyl co a
ENZYME: NAT1 NAT2 (NAT2 in intestinal -- polymorphic)

METHYLATION - phenols, catechols
COFACTOR: SAM (not actually transferred, CH3 is)
ENZYME: A-methyltransferases
-ex 6-mercaptopurine is toxic, has to get changed to 6-methylmercaptopurine

I didn't want to study any more of that
but
St. John's Wart inhibits CYP 3A4 which can also inhibit Indinvar (HIV drug),cyclosporine (organ rejection drug) and so can grapefruit
ketaconozole and/or erthyromycin DOES NOT mix well with Seldane
woot woot

congratulations Paige & Phil!

2009-10-28T17:59:00.000-04:00

Now officially engaged!
This makes me happy.
What makes me happier is that I am designated MOH (Thanks Paige!) which means I get to use my expert event planning skills. Being the Maid of Honour, I basically have to set up the bridal shower. I know Paige wants something FUN without being tacky, and I'm trying to find stuff to suit her personality. The wedding is going to be in October, so I assume she will have the Bridal shower at the end of August.

Her wedding is very much suited to her and Phil's personality - it'll be very quaint and at the same time everything will be homemade. I'm thinking that I should have the Bridal Shower invitations handmade as well, seeing as the actual wedding invitations will be.

I'm going to try and go down to Leamington in a few weekends and we can spend the entire weekend brainstorming and getting ideas (which I think will help us both a lot).

TO DO:
-Get List of Individuals Invited (so I know how much cardstock to buy/invitations) - from there I can price out what would be more cost effective
-Make sure to get THANK YOU CARDS that match or look cute (same amount)
-Approximately 3 months prior, send out invitations
-Keep track of RSVP list (Paige's Mom and Phil's mom are "SUPPOSED" to be in charge of this" and I think it will be easier considering I am 4 hours away)
-Determine THEME (if we want one)
-Determine Games List
-Determine Prizes
-Determine Favours
-Determine Centerpieces
-Determine location & food
-Determine decorations

Right now I think that's it....
I am tempted to run over to Party Packagers or Staples to see what kinds of invitations they have. I am EXCITED. WOOT WOOT!
I think I can handmake the invitations, I did that for prom and they looked amazing!
When I think Paige's Bridal Shower, I think FUN BRIGHT colours
So maybe a white cardstock with multicoloured border. Hrm Hrm Hrm.

2009 casby pictures

2009-10-26T00:11:00.001-04:00

Matthew Good

Joel from Bedouin Soundclash

Arkells (VERY GOOD LIVE)

Mother Mother >

Metric

illScarlet

...and a special little treat:

(these are actually the guys from the Edge pretending to be City and Colour and accepting one of the awards and then singing a really BAD version of "the Girl")

2009 casbys

2009-10-23T22:39:00.001-04:00

DSC01248
Originally uploaded by spaciousgrace

So I went to the CASBYS yesterday night. Mother Mother played last night, and I thought Jelissa might like to see this:

I finally got around to uploading all my summer pictures, so pretty soon I'll upload videos from the casbys as well as the Toronto Just for Laughs we went to : )

TEN A EM.

2009-10-22T10:10:00.000-04:00

It's way too early.
But I'm in class right now.
Studious, I know.

So guess what I'm doing tonight?
CASBY AWARDS!!!
Heck yes!
I've never been to an award show. Actually, to be honest --- it's more like a huge concert. Metric, MOTHER MOTHER ((YEEES!!!!)), Stills, Arkells, Matthew Good, the guy from Bedouin and some other people are playing.

I will actually try and find my adapter so I can upload photos onto my computer, this will be a fun night.
I have class until 1PM, I'm driving home (I couldn't wake up early enough to catch the bus), catching the bus to Square One and hoping on the GO.
I'm gonna spend time at the Eaton Centre until Mary comes to pick me up and then SPRING ROLLS!!!!!

Note to self: DON'T FORGET YOUR CAMERA!!!

thank you hormones:

2009-10-20T00:33:00.000-04:00

I am suddenly really pissed off and upset.
Reason? NONE.

I just want to kick something, and cry.
People are stupid, school is stupid, bahh!!!

I seriously wonder sometimes why the fuck I hold my tongue as frequently as I do. Sometimes I should just be a bitch and say what I'm thinking.

I want to throw a $130 textbook at someone's face.
Violent, I know. Sorry.

hmph.

2009-10-20T00:18:00.001-04:00

I feel weird.

I can't explain how I am feeling properly.

This is not helping.

Where do I stand? I feel bipolar almost.

There's so many things pulling me in, and there are things trying to push me away.

I feel like I'm starting to...question....some of the things I thought before.

(how bad is it that I miss Waterloo and the notion of being left alone? How can I be so uncertain of what I want?)

I squish your head!!

2009-10-19T11:07:00.001-04:00

Thank you Ryan for the KITH Season 1 DVD set. I love it more than life itself, and I love you more than life itself.

Love love love.

Just letting you know that you are now stuck with me, sorry.

I love that we can talk about ANYTHING and EVERYTHING and every time I have an issue and I talk to you about it, I feel so much better.

I'm not used to 'talking' about my feelings and problems with relationships to my partner, this is a nice change.

this is, however, not effective for when it comes to studying.
And NOTE TO SELF: BRING GLASSES!!!
I'm in class right now and I CAN NOT see the projector screen AT ALL. This could be bad.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOMATO!! <3

2009-10-14T23:14:00.000-04:00

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bleh.

2009-10-14T22:15:00.000-04:00

i am feeling......numb.
again, i am feeling like i did in Waterloo.
i don't like this feeling.
i'm on the verge of tears, my head ready to explode.

fuck, why is this happening?
i'm becoming lethargic, and all i want to do is sleep.
i will sleep, feel better for a few hours, and then get this heavy feeling, one of impending doom and fear, and just want to cry myself to sleep.
FUCK.

psychology 201.

2009-10-13T22:37:00.001-04:00

I'm getting the same feeling I did when I was stuck in Waterloo.
I can't put a word on that emotion, I just feel.
But it's scaring me. I didn't like the way I felt in Waterloo, and I tried to move back home to change that.
Was it home that I was missing? Or is there something else?
If the root of my problem is not homesickness, what is it?

I have a pit in my stomach right now, a knot in my throat.
My parents can tell something is wrong.
My mom stopped by the office today to drop off car keys, and she was telling me something, and I was listening to her, paying attention to her, but I didn't intake anything of what she said. My mind was somewhere else, but I don't know where.
My boss was telling me something, and I completely disregarded what she said, and realized it after I left the office.
I feel...drugged.

It just confuses me because I'm happy. I finally feel like I'm in a position where I can say I am content with myself, with my life, with the people in my life. Why do I feel like this then?

IT'S OFFICIAL. DALLAS IS STALKING ME.

2009-10-09T01:35:00.000-04:00

http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=6209760&blogID=513515053

DEAR JELISSA,
WE ARE GOING TO THIS, SORRY IF YOU HAD OTHER PLANS.
WOOT WOOT.

:D :D :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
This makes up for the fact I did bad in Pharmacology. hahaa not really.

shaky knees.

2009-10-08T00:31:00.000-04:00

I can't get over how enamored I am when I even think about you.
I wish I could properly express how I feel. I can't put emotions into words as easily you can, without making it sound like I'm just copying and pasting what you've said to me.

I get butterflies when I see you, or when you unexpectedly send me an e-mail (by the way, I love your emails). I can't wait 10 more days, that's TOO long for me, seriously.

I love every little single thing about you, from your chicken-pock "mole" on the inside of your ear to the way you look at me when I act like a 10 year old.

I can't wait until you get your own place - technically it will be partly my place too, because I already know I will be over there every chance I get. And I'm excited that you're allowing me to practice my interior decorating abilities. I've only practiced for ... 10 years or so (yay for Sears and Ikea catalogues to feed my daydreams as a teen).

I want to be able to drive over to your house on a cold November evening after I've finished a long day of classes, be able to open my books up in front of the TV on the coffee table while you watch hockey. Ever intermission I would ask you for help with homework and then smother you in kisses for helping me. MMmmm. And then CUDDLE TIME!!!

There's always that little devil in the back of my mind, trying to make me worry about NOT being with you, but when I'm with you (with the exception of Saturday) I don't feel worried. I feel....safe.

Again, should be doing some kind of work.....

2009-09-21T21:50:00.000-04:00

Where’s the closest hoodie to you right now? In my bedroom
What restaurant do you think has the Best French Fries? Swiss Chalet
When’s the last time you played the board game Clue? Grade Seven!!!
Who did you last get in an argument with?: Ryan, although I wouldn't call it an argument. It was a tiff. But I hate being mad at him.
Do you think you could live without your cell phone?: Nay.
Where is your dad right now?: Upstairs watching House.
How many people do you know of named Adam? Uhhh...
How about Jessica’s? Like 1000 ahaha
Do you do your homework? I really should
Are you friends with any cheerleaders?: Cheerleaders?
What was the last thing you burnt? Eggs.
What was the last picture you took? of Callie!!!!
If you could move anywhere, and take three people with you, where and who? Ooh that's a hard question.
Is your computer slow right now?: Nay.
What’s the best thing about your mom?: She's a confident woman.
Have you seen your best friend naked?: Nope.
Have you ever been in the hospital?: Yup
Would you date someone that none of your friends like?: Why not.
Does your phone have to be charged every day? Not always everyday but usually...
When is the last time you held hands with someone? Sunday
If you woke up as the opposite gender, what’s the 1st thing you would do? Pee standing up
Who did you last hug? Ryan
Have you ever crawled through a window? No, but I've seen Jelissa do it, hahaha
Where is your mom? at Bingo ahaha
Morning or night person? Night
What was the last movie you watched? I can't remember to be honest.
Any cool scars? I scratched so hard I made a mole on myself. Twice
Things about the opposite sex you notice first? Eyes
What career would you wish to be in? Communication disorders
Do you want a well-paying job or a job you enjoy? Well paying job. I want to live in Toronto.
When were you last on your phone? Like a few hours ago...
What were the shoes you wore today? Smelly Wal-Mart flats.
Do you like math? NO!!!!!
Are you currently in a relationship? Yes! :)
Do you like hugs? I like cuddling more

dear ryan

2009-09-21T09:50:00.000-04:00

I think we should elope in Argentina.

<3

This "seeing you once a week" thing is driving me insane, especially spending the day with you and talking last night. Le sigh.

I just want to snuggle with you in your bed, with Callie as well. Or wait, with Callie as long as she isn't in our faces while we are kissing. ahahaha.

I think I need to post pictures of our favourite statue at Queen's Park.

stars

2009-09-19T13:22:00.001-04:00

Read the lyrics to

What I'm Trying to Say - Stars

Pay attention to the chorus.

I have 7 chapters in Pharmacology to read, I'm on page 7. I've been reading for an hour. FUCK.

school!

2009-09-17T21:57:00.000-04:00

to do list for friday/saturday:

print out bio200 notes up until lecture 7 (or do what that smart guy did and get a coiled book made for the class!!
rewrite bio200 notes up until latest lecture
print out psy 201 notes
rewrite psy 201 notes
read chapter2/3 in lin 200
do lin 200 assignment (due Tuesday)
read and do notes for mat 134
do mat134 assignment (due Thursday)
print off mat134 syllabus
work on bio152L quiz and prelab (due Wednesday)
START MODULE ONE!!! ***due Saturday night!!!!!
read bio 200 chapters you've missed
print out bio152 tutorial notes TONIGHT!!!

ugh.

: - )

2009-09-17T01:24:00.000-04:00

<3<3<3
i lover you.

i have a cold sore.

2009-09-10T01:59:00.000-04:00

HARK! THE FORCES OF THE DUCHY HERPES SIMPLEX VIRUS ATTACK MY LIP RELENTLESSLY

...and this is why my boyfriend equals amazing.

UGHH!!!!!

2009-09-09T16:39:00.001-04:00

Proof that I am the biggest dumbass on earth.

I HIT A FUCKING PARKED CAR

So badly so, my front bumper fell off.

The car isn't TOO bad, my front right headlight skimmed the back left side of the other van, and then the front of the car hit the tire and beside the tire well. When I went to pull back because I FREAKED OUT - I think the front bumper caught the tire well and that's how it pulled off.

It was in the school parking lot, so I left all my contact information on the windshield with a heartfelt apology hoping the person could call because I'm 200% willing to pay for the damages I caused on the vehicle, because I know I'm at fault FOR SURE.

My nerves are shot because he hasn't called back - the accident happened at 930am, and my mom and I went back to the school around 1pm and the car was still there. And the police officer won't give me the phone number so I can call and a) apologize a million times and b)try and pay.

I'm worried they are going to try and call their insurance company because by doing so, my insurance premiums are going to sky rocket because I'm technically a student driver.

aw!!!

2009-09-08T23:10:00.000-04:00

proof that the boy is the cutest thing ever:

Ryan - Thought: you should take a history elective so I can tutor you. I would very much enjoy that
Cat - Ooh private tutor
Ryan - Yuh huh. And if you do well you get muchos kissing. And if you don't...
Cat - I still get muchos kisses!
Ryan - You get consiliatory muchos kissing!

<3<3<3

What I do When I can't sleep:

2009-09-07T23:42:00.000-04:00

STEP ONE:
Spell your name with songs.
I'm kind of lazy....
I can do band NAMES though:
Copeland
Alexisonfire
Two Hours Traffic
Every Time I Die
Rage Against the Machine
Illscarlet
Nine Inch Nails
Anberlin
STEP TWO:
– Name: caterina chantel elizabeth minaudo
– Birth date: june 3/1989
– Nickname: cat, catty, betty
– Eye Color: brown
– Hair Color: brown/blonde streak
– Zodiac Sign: gemini

STEP THREE:
–The shoes you wore today: metallic flats
– Your weaknesses: ice cream, puppies and babies
-Your fear(s): being alone, becoming overly obese
-Your perfect pizza: hawaiian! (with dipping sauce on the side!!!)
-Goal you’d like to achieve: pass calculus, graduate university

STEP FOUR:
– Your best physical feature:my eyes?
– Your bedtime: never, haha. usually 3am
– Most missed memory? my great aunt, fafa

STEP FIVE:
This Or That…
– Pepsi or Coke? neither
– McDonald’s or Burger King: oooh tough. Burger King
– Adidas or Nike: Adidas
– Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
– Chocolate or Vanilla: CHOCOLATE
– Cappuccino or coffee: chai latte : )

STEP SIX:
Do You…
– Smoke: NAY!
– Curse: yes : )
– Sing: in the shower
– Dance: nay
– Take a shower everyday: usually
– Have a crush: YES!
– Want to go to college: I AM IN COLLEGE
– Like(d) high school: Yeah it was good
– Want to get married: YES
– Get motion sickness: on boats
– Think you’re a health freak: Nay
– Get along with your parents: YES

STEP SEVEN:
In the past month…
– Gone to the mall: haha I worked AT the mall
– Eaten an entire box of Oreos: Hell yeah!
– Eaten Sushi: :D
--Been on Stage:haha YES!!!
– Gone skating: Yes
– Made homemade cookies: mmm yes!!!
– Gone Skinny dipping: haha sort of?
– Stolen anything: NO

STEP EIGHT:
Ever…
– Played a game that required removal of clothing: No but that might be interesting... (AHAHA)
– If so, was it mixed company: n/a see above
- Flashed anyone: YES! ahahahahahahahaha (we were HORRIBLE people in grade school)
– Been beaten up: nay
– Shoplifted: nay

STEP NINE:
– Age you hope to be married: 27
– Numbers of Children: 3 at most
– Describe your Dream Wedding: small, simple dress, small but quaint church, reception ...aha I haven't given it much thought. I could even get married at home I don't care (I'll pull a Dallas Green)
– What country would you most like to visit?: Australia!

STEP TEN:
In the opposite sex...
– Best eye color?: Hazel or Green
– Best hair color?: Light brown
– Short hair or long hair?: meh not picky depends on the guy
– Height: not crazy ass tall that's for sure

STEP ELEVEN:
– Number of people I could trust with my life: 6 or 7
– Number of CDs that I own: 30?
– Number of tattoos: 1
– Number of piercings: just ears

Personal Quiz
Who were you with yesterday? RYAN :D :D :D
What woke you up this morning? Candice and Amy puppy!!
Where are you? in my room
Is tomorrow going to be a good day? I hope so, first day at a new university :D

THE PAST
Ever thrown up in public? hrm, not that I remember
Passed out because of alcohol? yes, not a good night
What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW? THE BOY!

THE FUTURE
What kind of home would you like? A nice one full of Ikea furniture hahaha
What do you want to be when you grow up? SLP!
Where do you see yourself in 5 years? in Toronto

IN GENERAL
Do you like candy necklaces? haha they = fun
When was the last time you fell over or ran into something? I always do that
Do you listen to music every day? Yes
Do you still go trick or treating? I WISH!!!!
What was the last thing you ate? smarties ice cream
Are you a fast typer? yep 80+ wpm
Whats your favorite type of soda? Gingerale
Have you ever moved? hahaha yes
Have you ever won an award? Yep lots
Are you listening to music right now? nay
How long tiill your birthday? 9 months
When were you the saddest in your whole life? when my great-aunt passed away
What time is it? 11:58pm
Do you use ebay to buy or sell? nope
Who makes you mad? Stupid people.
Have you ever heard a song written about you? ahha I wish

HONESTY SECTION
2. Honestly, whats on your mind? The boy!!!
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now? on the computer
6. Honestly, have you done something bad today? Nay!
8. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone? Matt
9. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? Nope
10. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time? Stupid people
11. Honestly, do you bite your nails? Nope
12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? I think I eat TOO much
13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment? OF COURSE!!!
14. Honestly, are you keeping a big secret now? Nope
15. Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like? haha no....
17. Honestly, are you in denial? NO!
18. Honestly, do you get up in the middle of the night and eat? All the time
19. Honestly, do you like anyone? YES!!!
20. Honestly, does anyone like you? I believe so haha!

ANGER SECTION
1. What do you do when you’re mad? Kick stuff and sometimes cry
2. What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad? Kicked a box which broke products while at work
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? haha maybe my brother?
4. Do you swear when you’re mad? YES HOLY I HAVE A DIRTY SAILOR MOUTH WHEN IM PISSED

CRYING SECTION
1.When was the last time you actually cried? I don't remember...probably while in Waterloo
2. Ever cried yourself to sleep? yeah...
3. Do certain songs make you cry? MISSING - CITY AND COLOUR (I can't listen to it all the way through)
4. What usually makes you cry? People

HAPPY SECTION
1. Are you usually a happy person? YES
2. What makes you the happiest?People
4. Do you believe in yourself? Of course
5. When people say they think you are good looking/pretty, do you get happy? haha it is a confidence booster

Cat and Ryan's Movie List:

2009-09-07T02:11:00.000-04:00

Se7en
The Producers
Edward Scissorhands (for Ryan, not me hahahahaha)
Wrath of Khan
Star Trek
Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs
Bananas
Zodiac
Annie Hall

Cat and Ryan's to do list:

2009-09-07T00:36:00.000-04:00

** chillax
1. Portuguese Restaurant
2. Queen St
3. SHOPPING!
4. Bookstore across from BMV
5. Picnic
6. Hippo Boat Tours
7. French Restaurant
8. Steve's Music Store (on Queen)
9. (MONTREAL)
10.Casa Loma
11. Bata Shoe Museum
12. AGO
13. ROM
14. St Lawrence Market
15. Waterloo
16. (San Francisco)
17. Across Canada road/train-trip (+ PEI/NFLD)
18. Camping
19. Skiing (in Montreal!?!?)
20. Skating (in Montreal!?!?!)
21. ROCK BAND!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-09-07T00:35:00.001-04:00

: )

seeing as I am officially registered...

2009-09-06T01:05:00.000-04:00

Name: Caterina
Province/State of Origin: Ontario : )
Faculty at U of T: Sciences (UTM)

Ten interesting facts about yourself:
1. My brother and I are looking on kijiji for dogs, knowing full well we can't actually get one
2. I want and will learn sign language.
3. I'm going to the Olympics!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
4.I'm in like
5. Douglas Coupland is my favourite author
6. I hate socks.
7. I have a stuffed animal named Bojangles, that I "stole" from the coolest roommate ever : )
8. I have been in a music video and have met Dallas Green - his music is the reason I am still alive
9. I have a few Beatles' songs stuck in my head
10. I am crazy nervous to start school

Zodiac Sign: Gemini

What's on your playlist?
Well right now I'm listening to Ryan's playlist because mine is lacking. All I have is music from Fighter/Lover and music from a 'band' in northern Africa (still both good though!)

Recommend a movie: Edward Scissorhands, Fight Club, Hook, The Dark Knight

Do you play an instrument?: guitar, I've played piano and bass...and I have a broken violin sitting in my room

Any other artsy skills?: no I suck

What extracurriculars did you do in high school?: Soccer, Student Council, Prom Committee, Law Club (was it a club?), Morning Announcements

Where else did you apply: Waterloo, Guelph, York, and somewhere else I forget

Political Ideology: Liberal

Describe your family: they are pretty awesome. Except my brother right now, he's pissing me off

Are you in love? In like?

What do you do with friends?: wander aimlessly, take them to Toronto on trips (haha), just hang out

What do you want to do at U of T?: become the smartest person alive! muahahahahahaha

Okay yeah :)

sundae!

2009-09-05T01:17:00.001-04:00

I have a date on Sunday with essentially the most amazing person on the face of the earth. Essentially.

<3<3<3<3

fall.

2009-09-03T02:23:00.000-04:00

I am excited for this weekend.
Fuck, I feel like such a weirdo.

: )
I got the stamp of approval from Paige, which is big because her opinion matters to me a lot.
She of all people knows I can't get fucked over again, so she is protective of me, haha.
I loves her!

<3

it has finally arrived!

2009-09-02T23:17:00.000-04:00

Earlier, too!!!

s k e t c h y

2009-08-31T23:05:00.000-04:00

I feel odd today.
Blissful, almost.

I bought Generation A today, even though it comes out tomorrow (thank you Square One Chapters!).
I feel like such a bore, but I'm just....happy.
I have to make sure I read this book before next week.
AHH SCHOOL.

I am a bore.
Goodness.
I'm sorry.

stuck in my head:

2009-08-31T02:08:00.000-04:00

I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
I'd love you to love me.
I'm begging you to beg me.

c h o p s t i c k s

2009-08-31T01:14:00.000-04:00

again, bad with titles.

i wish i could draw, because then I could show a picture of my heart, swelling. Don't worry, it's not clogged arteries, I'm just happy.

And want to cuddle. The dog is cute and all, but she farts a lot.

<3

SWEET!

2009-08-29T03:45:00.001-04:00

Find your own pose!

wtf.

2009-08-28T22:34:00.000-04:00

I'm not a fucking child.

You don't have to tell me everything, step by step.

Fuck. I don't want to feel like I'm being babied. You're NOT superior to me by any means.

If this is how it's going to be, I want out right now.

And this pseudo-"nice-guy" shit. Not fucking cutting it.

Stop the bulshit I can smell you from a mile away.

Ah. Much Better. Me + Food do good.

lumberjack.

2009-08-24T23:23:00.001-04:00

Thank goodness plaid is in style. I love my new shirt and chapeau!
TOKYO POLICE CLUB IS PLAYING THE CNE ON SATURDAY...AH!
I'm watching MTV Live and a band called Pastel is playing (SOOO GOOD). This means, note to self, check them out!!! I'm going to be stretching my ears again, I'm thinking a 6g is big enough. I just want to wear the wood leopard tapers.

shortcuts.

2009-08-23T20:35:00.000-04:00

I've discovered I'm not good at blog titles at all.
I'm sorry to anyone actually searching for something useful and stumbling across my page via Google.

I'm wondering. Is this right?
Am I right ?
I'm sensing this isn't what you want, I'm not what you want.
If it is, that's okay. I'm just saying I don't want to waste your time.

I'm going to be attending a new university in two weeks. I'm done at Green Earth in two weeks. I'm going to Vancouver in less than six months. I can't think straight right now, my body is aching for sleep, and yes it is only 8:40PM.
I don't know what to say anymore.

legs away

2009-08-21T22:46:00.000-04:00

I got lost about an hour ago
I sailed past that fork in the road and now here I stand
A stranger in a foreign land
An empty barn and a weather vein
A picket fence that's seen its day
Oh I sit to stay cuz I don't got much to do today
I go down to the local store
I caught a glance from the local whore that she threw my way
And I still got nothing to do today
I carry on down the street
I'm looking for a place to eat, but my belly's so full
With all these things I'm hoping for, whores

And I'm wishing my legs away
Oh I'm wishing my legs away
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
Cuz they're taking me to no where safe
Oh, they're taking me to know where safe

An old man in a pickup truck
Says, "son are you out of luck?"
And I nod my hard head
I say my day is spent and my spirit's dead
He says, "come on now take a ride. You sit yourself in the passenger side and I'll go your way, cuz I don't got much to do today"

And I'm wishing my legs away
Oh I'm wishing my legs away
Cuz they're taking me to no where safe
Oh, they're taking me to know where safe

this is a story I am writing.

2009-08-19T23:32:00.000-04:00

She stood in the hallway, not knowing what exactly to expect. Her mind screamed at her to go, although she could not muster up the strength to move any further. Daniel stood at the entrance, shoulders and head sunken, a bouquet of hand picked daffodils in one hand.

view blog

2009-08-19T23:20:00.000-04:00

Can you see yourself in 10 years time?
Where will you be?
Who will you be with?
What will you do?
Who will you be?

Where will I be?
Who will I be with?
What will I be doing?
Who will I be?

A few years ago, I had everything figured out. I knew what I wanted, I knew who I wanted and I knew who I was.
I lost it all, quickly.
Now trying to figure everything out is time consuming and terrifying, although somewhat exciting considering the mystery behind it.

I just want to be happy. I want to be somewhere that makes me happy, with someone that makes me happy. I am happy.
Happy.

bleh.

2009-08-16T01:56:00.000-04:00

My insomnia is kicking in again, screaming in my ear, daunting me.
Why does my mind run in so many directions?
Why can't I just be apathetic to the ways of the world?
But the human mind is its own entity altogether, for as much information we know with it, the neurons, the areas of the brain, its plasticity....we do not know the true power of the human mind.
Like mine, for example, who feels that exercising at 3am is a good idea.
I've always wondered how it would feel to be in the body of a cat or a dog. Would a household pet have the same thought process as a human?
I know a lot of animal behavior is partially dominated by instinct and survival mechanisms alone, but when you think about it - so are we.
It erks me when people don't believe that pheromones are real. The belief that a mate looks more attracted based on the hormonal scents they give off. We are, after all, monkeys. I don't think we would be exempt from the law of evolution. We still have a need to procreate, to pass on our genetic offspring -- although our higher power of thinking has led us to believe otherwise, we are still subconsciously following the laws of animal behavior.

This brings me to an entirely new subject. Sex. I may have talked about this before, and this may have a similar (if not the same) premise. What is sex without love? Lust, correct. Is having sex without the accompaniment of love any better than having it with?
I couldn't argue in any direction for I am thankfully biased on the matter, feeling that love and sex are a better combination -- but in that sense sex is not just physical, but has an entirely different and confusing emotional aspect to it. What about those who just have sex for pleasure -- just a physical fulfillment? How does this change when they find someone they care deeply for and want to share a "special bond" with them? Related to above, we are all animals, so the desire to procreate is very strong--does this fill people with a satisfaction that I'm not aware of, or because of our 'higher thinking' does this make us exempt from that need and desire?

portugal!

2009-08-15T00:46:00.000-04:00

So my cousins are leaving for Portugal tomorrow, and I think I'm more excited than them than they are, aha. I'm going to be house & dog sitting for the duration of their trip. I'm also heading up to Wasaga tomorrow night after a stop at the airport.
I got asked out by a 16 year old today. He looks 16 though, peach fuzz and all.

Aye.
My brain is clogging with calories from McDonalds. Now I want a McFlurry + fries.
If you haven't tried it, please do.
Note to Self:
---download Anthony Dufour -- Memories of the Future

computer computer

2009-08-13T00:32:00.000-04:00

Even Facebook is so much cuter on a Mac.
I almost forget how amazing it is to be able to walk freely through the house without having to worry about transporting silly wires with me, or afraid of losing data if I move the computer the wrong way. And it's soo cute!

I'm so used to PCs that it is somewhat tricky to get used to, but I'm already starting to get the swing of things.
YAHOO.

In another note, I'm giving my two weeks notice tomorrow and I haven't been feeling well lately.
bleh.

my new mac.

2009-08-11T22:08:00.000-04:00

Just purchased a new Macbook, 13.3" - sleek and seeexy.
Currently it's at the store getting all the programs installed.
I paid $1800 (taxes and all) for:
--the computer
--4 year warranty
--Photoshop Elements 6
--Cannon All-in-One Photo Printer (MP480)
--iWork '09

I think I got a pretty good deal, and we were able to get the set up fee removed.
I'll take pictures of it once I get it and have it all set up and pretty.

:)
Sorry Toshie, you're OUTTA HURRRR. That's what happens when your battery sucks.

silver & gold

2009-08-06T17:58:00.000-04:00

I want to make this work.
There is a small part of me that has some skepticism, some reservation about doing this.
I don't want to believe that any part of you can be evil, let alone mean.
I have to make this work.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JELISSA!!!!

2009-07-24T17:47:00.000-04:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JELISSA!!!

purple rain.

2009-07-21T19:18:00.000-04:00

My goodness, this weather is so dreary! It's mid-July and it's warmer in Yellowknife. WTF.
I purchased "Turbo Jam" months ago and finally did one of the workouts. I need to get in shape so I can join the soccer team at school, it's just I work my ass off and am so exhausted by the time I get home.
This past weekend we went to downtown Toronto to the Just for Laughs festival, and got to see a trampoline act 4 times, bollywood dance, Indian drummers and RUSSELL PETERS! He was absolutely hilarious as always, and I have video (it's not uploading!?!).
Now back to the world of work and I'm just trying to figure out when I should put in my 'two weeks notice' at work. Or tell them I can work on the weekends and let them decide if they want to keep me. My schedule is SOO much better than when I was in Waterloo (no morning and then night classes, thank goodness!) but my Mondays & Wednesdays are packed with classes, and that's when shipments come in. I have to wait until open enrollment on Friday to see if I can get into the psychology courses, or check to see if the lady at the transfer credit office talked to the Psychology Undergraduate Advisor to accept my subject POSt. I can't get over how different UTM and Waterloo are, it's definitely different to get used to.

In better news, MY LAPTOP WORKS UNPLUGGED!!! I decided to take out the battery and put it in again, and it actually works if it unplugs for a good 20min.

I'm going to be re-taking my CPR class in a few weeks, dumbass me let my CPR certificate expire so now I have to pay $150 to retake the class.

smarty pants pooh.

2009-07-06T00:51:00.000-04:00

so i just decided that i am going to invest a small amount of money and purchase an eco-friendly journal from work so that i can write all of my Vancouver triumphs and trials and how everything is coming along. I think it will be neat to see the progression of everything, and then I will have it all written down so when I go, it's a matter of opening up the book and writing in it. I feel that when I went to France -- I forgot a lot of stuff that happened!!! It sounds so bad, but I was just too tired and I didn't blog about it or anything.
I don't want the same thing to happen. And I think it written down on paper would be good because it would be saving me frm writing it on blank sheets of things I find all over the house - and it'll be organized.
For example, if we run into a rut and have to call a taxi or customer service while in Seattle, all the information will already be in my book.

:)

223.

2009-07-06T00:26:00.000-04:00

It's getting closer.
And I'm still planning!

Josh and I were discussing purchasing event tickets today, so we're probably going to do that when I go to visit on Thursday.

I realized that I was looking at the schedule for the shuttle buses wrong, so I found alternative solutions that we can take.
For example, if we want we can:
a) take a "Quick Shuttle" that departs directly from the airport and goes through to South Surrey and downtown Vancouver (departs 545pm)
b) take a scenic tour of downtown Seattle (approx half hour) in the snow (via public transit), go to the King Street Station (to where the Amtrak is) and either take the Amtrak to Vancouver or the CanTrail Coach.

To take option B --> the public transit, we might see a bit more of the city and eat before we get onto the bus (because we can't cross the border with food!!!), but I am also sure there are places where we can eat inside the airport.
Either way, it's a 45min difference -- the funny thing is, the CanTrail leaves later but arrives in Surrey earlier (I think it's because there are less stops).
I dunno.

I came back from Wasaga Beach today and am entirely burnt (even after globbing on sunscreen).

224.

2009-07-03T02:28:00.000-04:00

Yo! This blog is going to turn into the "preparation for Vancouver 2010" blog, seriously because that's all I can think about.

So I went on my online banking acct and almost had a heart attack today. Yesterday (Canada Day!) I transferred 400$ to my credit card to start paying it off. When I looked under "transactions" it showed the money was transferred...but when you look at "Payment History" it doesn't show up. So basically my acct looks like I'm $400 short and I don't know where that money has gone. I think I'm going to wait a day or two to see if it gets sorted out, or pop into the bank tomorrow (or call).

Anyways. Here's an update on what has happened thus far in regards to Vancouver 2010.
Nothing. I worked like a slave dog today making minimum wage, ended up getting really pissed and having a mini anxiety attack because I hate working there but need another job.
Also, I'm making a trip down to Waterloo next week to sort out all of my OSAP information, and see if I can drop my courses for Fall 2009 at Waterloo (so I don't get charged any $$). And of course, get my moolah from Josh, ahaha.

When I'm visiting Joshie, we're probably going to pick some events that we want to go to and buy tickets right then and there. Which means another $100+ on my credit card. Oh well.

Bruno is totally set to come, and I'm excited because it'll be fun having other people there!
As well, I'm looking into prices for hotels near the airport to stay at, so we're not rushing the night before. The cheapest I've found so far has been ~$70 (I can't remember if that's USD or CND). I'm almost considering sleeping at the airport, it might just be easier, haha.

225.

2009-07-02T01:35:00.000-04:00

So because I'm crazy, I've already put together of list of things that need to be done before we go to Vancouver for the Olympics.

1. Check and purchase event tickets (ASAP!)
2. Make sure all passports are valid
3. Make sure luggage is good size and under weight ($200 in baggage fees NO THANK YOU!)
4. figure out how we're going to get to the airport...
- we can either get someone to drive us REALLY early in the morning
- crash in a hotel room the night before
5. if we crash in a hotel room in Buffalo, that needs to be booked and paid for
6. go get my money from Josh and do all my OSAP/school paperwork
7. start saving up money/look for another job
8. make fun luggage tags
9. get all travel accomodations figured out 2 months in advance --> this includes but is not limited to: getting to/from the airport (see #4,5), getting from Seattle into Surrey, transportation to and from Whistler, BC (if we decide to go).
10. buy a new game for Gameboy (yes I still own one) or steal my brother's PSP.

mission.

2009-07-01T02:14:00.000-04:00

SEPTEMBER 10: 5-6pm Girls' Soccer Tryouts.

My goal before the end of the summer is to build my endurance so I can actually try out for soccer and have a fighting chance with some of the other indivduals trying out for the team.

I actually want to be part of something this year.

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Date Start: July 1/2009. Ooh look at that, it's today.

2 2 6.

2009-06-30T21:37:00.000-04:00

It is booked.

I am going.
Vancouver 2010.

WOOOOOOOOOOO!

van-city 2 0 1 0

2009-06-15T01:47:00.001-04:00

Bruno made me super duper happy today, indeed!

I'm probably going to be buying my tickets within the next week or so, fucking hooray!

I'm glad because it's almost finalized at this point; before I was so skeptical that this was even going to work because of all the expenses I thought I was facing ...and because Air Canada is SOO amazing, it would have cost me almost 1000$ to go from Toronto to Vancouver.

Bachelorette party happening tomorrow night, wha!!

ore-ore-ole

2009-06-09T00:45:00.000-04:00

i love life.
i love you.
i don't love poo.

i'm an artist, woah.

anyways. it's storming right now.

my mind is going in 10348394 different directions right now, mostly do to an ongoing sugar rush but i'm just so confuzzeled.
how do i make this work?
will it work?
should i bother?
horoscope?
bahh!

dave & busters!

2009-06-08T00:34:00.000-04:00

today (partly for my birthday because of the inability of NOT going to Wonderland) my older cousins took me out to Dave & Busters. Basically...it's an adult version of an arcade, with a restaurant and bar attached.
I LOVED IT!!!
First off, we decided that we have to
a) have a Toronto trip
b) go to Niagara Falls (Alessio has never been!?)
...and those make me happy like pie so I was thrilled, the food was good, and I won 1000 tickets on a spinny thingee.

-----

So. I'm slightly unsure of things right now. My cousin is always telling me "Ales is such a great guy blah blah blah" ...and because I'm the only single female she knows I think she wants me to try and date him? She's constantly hinting at it, but I don't even know how to respond to that. I'm not forward enough and God knows he's more shy & awkward than I am. He's absolutely one of the nicest people I've ever met, though. He bought me a birthday present...not even some of my cousins did that! He won me prizes at D & B's and then gave 6000 points that he won over the times he had been to D & B's to Stef & Melissa so they could get a telescope. So I got him a mug, lmao.
He's overly sweet & surprisingly innocent, but like...I don't know. I don't even know if he's interested in dating anyone, especially me (would he feel weird dating a 20 yr old?...PROBABLY!). And what would happen if we didn't work out? That would ruin it - that's exactly what Stefano said...he doesn't want to set him up with anyone because he doesn't want to feel responsible if something doesn't work out.
BAHH. Here goes my mind running off again. I don't even know how I feel about dating. I kind of want to start dating again but I don't know how mentally prepared I am for let-downs or anything like that.

birf-day.

2009-06-05T17:45:00.000-04:00

So I am a bit slow on the blogging it seems. Let's update on what has happened thus far throughout my summer:
---I almost quit Green Earth and walked out because the manager tried to tell me I couldn't stand up in my cousin's wedding (WTF!?)
---Trying super duper uber hard to make friends with everyone and everything...it's going well thus far!
---my motherboard on my computer fried so it is in the process of being repaired
---I learned which buses NOT to take from UTM
---I actually saw my new university and was thoroughly disappointed. It is very tiny, but the people thus far have been overly accomodating and nice (except the transfer credit office who doesn't seem to answer my e-mails! WTF!!!!
---had my birthday, in which I was delightfully surprised by my family, singing and a cake (yum!)
---wanted to go to Wonderland, but going to Dave & Buster's in Concord(Woodbridge) instead on Sunday...Wonderland will have to wait
---JESSICA MY LOVE IS COMING TO VISIT IN LIKE THREE WEEKS!
---Going out to a tepanachi (sp?) restaurant tonight with Mary, Melissa and possibly Candice and my mouth is already watering
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So I received something very cute in the mail, and I thought I would share it! Jelissa sent me a birthday postcard from Vancouver, and it filled my heart with happiness and joy!!!

This here is George my Webkinz hedgehog with the postcard.
PS - Webkinz is actually pretty entertaining I find!

Thanks Jelissa!! ! ! ! ! !<3>

grinning in your face

2009-05-26T23:55:00.000-04:00

dallas + acapella = love

best radio segment ever

2009-05-21T00:35:00.001-04:00

i was listening to the radio while handing out resumes a few weeks ago and heard this and pretty much shit my pants:

Dean Blundell Show -- Kevin Smith meets Adrian

Two To Do. Do. Poo.

2009-05-09T23:13:00.000-04:00

I'm going to be making mad money this summer ... I hope.
I went Thursday to the mall to apply for part-time jobs and while I was looking for a birthday gift for Jessica I went to Green Earth and saw they were hiring. I brought my resume to the manager, had an interview on the spot and started work Friday. Pretty much I work as a part-time stock co-ordinator ...basically, I make the store look beautiful...and I basically have free range to do what I want when I want.
I just finished my second shift today where I reworked an entire section of the store, and she asked if I could come in Monday to rework another section. I absolutely love the job. The manager is a huge environmentalist so we reuse all bubble-wrap, plastic and we recycle or reuse the cardboard boxes we get.
I'm almost considering getting a third job at night or on weekends at possibly a restaurant or a store that is open 24hrs...no sleep for me! Right now my schedule looks like this:
Monday - Green Earth (~8hrs)
Tuesday - GMAC (~7hrs)
Wednesday - Green Earth (~8hrs)
Thursday - off (sometimes at Green Earth 4-5hrs)
Friday - GMAC (~7hrs)
Sat & Sun - OFF (or at Green Earth)
I know I have only been there two days but I asked my manager if I could learn how to ring in products so I could work with the cash register as well. I am so thrilled to be working there, hoorah!

la familia

2009-05-07T23:40:00.000-04:00

i love my family more than anything in the world.
i went a little paranoid today thinking about life and death and i realized ...
the only reason i'm so scared of death is because of its unknown mystery behind it and the fact that there is a chance i might not be able to tell my family how amazing each and every single one of them are.
i need to start. sometimes i take my family members for granted when i really shouldn't. i want to live with no regrets.

I CAN DIE HAPPY:

2009-05-02T23:58:00.001-04:00

Seriously. He is amazing.
PS. My hair is desheveled from spending...6hours on the Maid of the Mist.

itinerary.

2009-05-02T03:33:00.000-04:00

so i have the once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to see my true love and heroes.
and my parents almost fucked it up because they didn't want to give me a ride.

This is what's happened/going to happen:
-Monday or Tuesday I saw that AOF was having a "casting call" for extras for their new music video -- THIS NEVER HAPPENS!! So, I scramble to send in my information hoping that I would get chosen. Of course, because it's me -- I didn't really think I would actually hear back from them.
-THEY CHOSE ME! Although I was estatic beyond belief, my parents told me "too bad" -- they won't drive me anywhere. FUCK! The shooting starts around 9am and is downtown Niagara Falls (approximately an hour away from Mississauga)
-I checked EVERY possible scenario to getting down to where I need to be (which involved a lot of crying and mope-ing on my part).
-so I FINALLY found somethng (and I checked with the girl who e-mailed us the info for the video shoot):

1) WAKE UP EARLY (5am) -- it's current;y 3:40AM and I still haven't slept AND PRINT OFF MY NECESSARY PAPERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2)Leave Mississauga by 555am to get to Port Credit GO Station (about a 20min drive)
3)Take bus from Port Credit to Union Station (I should get there before 7am...HOPEFULLY)
4)From Union hop on the Subway to Dundas (~5min ride or so) --> RUN FRANTICALLY to the Toronto Bus Terminal on Bay St.
5) Buy my Coach Canada tickets (now this is where there is some confusion -- there are two buses leaving at 730 -- one gets to Niagara at 9am and one at 915...I NEED to get on the 900am)
6) Hopefully get to Niagara by 900am -- I already have a taxi phone number waiting to call when we're almost there
7)BOOT IT to the shooting location (It's only a 3MIN drive says MapQuest so I'm counting on getting a crazy whackjob driver)
8)Be in a music video!

So yeah. We'll see how this all goes.

geetar, geetar you sound so beautiful.

2009-05-01T01:31:00.000-04:00

i have narcolepsy. i am convinced.
i slept from 9pm to 7am last night, dropped my papino off at work and came back and slept until noon. and have been exhausted all day.
i also got my bridesmaid dress and wanted to cry.
i gained weight this year ...so about two inches on all my measurements since i last had them done ...but the dress fits everywhere except for the chest.
for my first cousin's wedding i had a size 10 dress and this one was a size 8...so i had my mom put it on (because she has the same measurements of what i used to be) and she couldn't even fit into them. i wanted to cry because the wedding is 6 weeks away and we're scrambling to find out how we can fix it. i think the dress is actually sized wrong - but wtf...how could this not be figured out in advance...it takes months to order a bridesmaid dress in, we should have been on our second or third fitting by now.
KILL ME PLEASE (not before I meet Dallas Green, though).

dance the itchies away!

2009-04-30T09:08:00.000-04:00

I finally start my new job tomorrow - I've felt so useless all week, and have been re-cleaning the same spots in the house all week.
My mom made a bet with me that if I can not scratch and pick my face for three months that she'll pay for my tickets to Vancouver in February.
Too bad my whole one side of my face is having an allergic reaction to something, so it's swollen and red. And too bad I just broke out.
BAHH!
This is difficult, and what makes it worse is that a lot of my scratching is subconscious so I have to be more aware -- but the more aware I am the more I want to scratch.
I got my @utoronto.ca e-mail today. It's making everything more real - I feel weird knowing that I won't be going back to Waterloo and have to learn Toronto's system for everything.

calendar girl, <3

2009-04-21T14:36:00.000-04:00

I'm out of here in...3 days. I cannot wait.
CANNOT WAIT.
Tomorrow night I'm painting my wall and desk.
Or at least priming it.
I wish I still had my camera but it's already in Mississauga.
YO!

Instead of studying for my most difficult exam yet, I'm eating yaki soba and blogging.
YUM.
I'm so tired. I just want sleep.
I think I shall take a 'study-break' and write my boss a thank-you card because she's been very very very very accomodating to my at-work meltdowns and constant requests for time off.

acylation, you best watch it.

2009-04-20T21:28:00.000-04:00

one exam left.
how amazing is that.
not really. considering i don't know anything about enols, aldehydes, ketones or NMR (which confuses me greatly).
oh well. I'm so apathetic now in regards to this last exam.

so for the last month or so i've been feeling run down and tired...all the time.
i have thalassemia, which hasn't been an issue yet for me but my fatigue is something entirely different. I can sleep 6-14 hours a night and still feel tired. If anything, my sleep schedule is the best it has ever been because I've been getting consistent sleep (I feel like an old bag, I can't stay up past 2AM).

I had my blood tested to see if there was anything wrong with me (diabetes!?!?!) but the doctor couldn't figure anything out - he wanted me to go see the dietician (even though I've already seen a nutrition nurse to manage healthy eating) because he didn't know what was wrong.
He said that last time I went to get blood taken (during first year) that I was anemic, but the doctor who ordered the tests told me my blood levels were fine. It just kind of worries me that two medical voices are telling me different things.

For those of you that don't know, I have thalassemia beta minor - which is basically an autosomal recessive disease that affects mostly individuals with a Mediterrianian/African/Asian background. Your red blood cells (which carry iron and oxygen) are a lot smaller therefore they can only hold smaller amounts of iron -- which makes you feel fatigued more often. To me, it's normal ... and it's pretty common.
It just sounds scary. Apparently thalassemia beta(or alpha) major (Cooley's anemia) is a lot worse which causes severe anemia.

It would be nice to just figure out what it wrong with me. I've tried everything -- sleeping more, sleeping less, eating certain foods, not eating other foods, going walking, multivitamins, etc etc. You are the only one who knows your body and you know when something is wrong with it. It's getting to the point where I just want to sleep all day. I probably convinced myself to NOT leave school 4 times today because I knew I would sleep when I got home.

:D

2009-04-15T11:22:00.001-04:00

Good bye Waterloo....HELLO UNIVERSITY OF TORONTO!!!

Normally, this would call for celebration but I can only imagine that my admission is conditional and I really need to do well on all my courses. I have an exam Thursday, Friday and then next Wednesday. That means - ridiculous amount of coffee (by the way, I won my FIRST Roll-up-the-Rim ...ever) and sleep deprivation.

GFR and Campylobacter and electrophilic attacks oh my!!!

I'm going to go to campus, get some food to last me all day and then camp out there until my hand falls off from writing. SEE YA!

phebs.

2009-04-10T00:57:00.000-04:00

i really dislike going to leamington. really.
but there are a few things i love going back for:

MY MUFFIN BEEF LOVE
Beautiful weather and the birds!!!!
My grandparents and great-aunt

Right now its 1:00AM and I'm trying to study but can't. Three huge exams next week. AYE.

Tomorrow I am having a study party with my one and only true love, then visiting some other family and then more studying. Hoo-rah.

Soo. I can't be around people anymore. they just weird me out.

Lake Erie water makes people loopy.